Monday, August 19, 2013
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
Day 17 and a little bit of day 18
Early in the morning I washed up all my clothes and then in the afternoon I went over to Mr.Luo's house. His wife, Mrs.Luo had a strong strength to hold up with her sorrow.
I came home at 2p.m. Sunny called and told me he was on his way to me with packed lunch. We went out together to buy some bubble papers for my packing after this. After shopping we went to his boss house for surfing at the internet and we spent 3 hours on that! Well at least I got the time to go on Facebook to be a busy body for a while. We stayed until 7p.m. and then we went out with Sin Huat and Ah Hong for dinner.
After dinner I went back to Mr.Luo's house and I met a student from my tuition class who was now 36 years old. She told me she was not marriage.Her body language have already given me the idea why she was single. After some chitchat she told me about her identity.
I couldn't stop myself not to think about her situation when I got home. In between the flashing of time she had also experienced a few unpleasant relationships. No one can guarantee your first love would be the right one.
One day has passed, again I still haven't packed anything....
Thursday 2012-08-09
I went to say goodbye at MR.Luo's funeral. Standing there and thought of the time when I sent mom away to the cemetery, I couldn't help myself not to be sorrowful. Mrs.Luo was too strong, not a single teardrop. I didn't know how long she could hold on. I remember now that year I held on until I totally burst out when Soo Imm gave me the message treatment. My whole body was released and my teardrops was overflowed, and then I could let go.
Where are you Soo Imm? I haven't see you for ages..
(P.s. to be continued...)
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Day 16
Tuesday 2012-08-07
Sin Huat and I went for breakfast. After that Jasmine drove me to the MPSP office at Bukit Mertajam so that I could pay the house tax, at same time I could get a number from the Tax Department at the same area. Actually I already have a number! Malaysia's Tax Department has progressed, Just like what Sin Huat told mem the best efficiency of government agencies is the Tax Department.
After that I went for shopping at Jesco for a whole day by myself. It was good I didn't have to ask someone to shop with me. I felt easy and relief to shop alone, no pressure. I could buy whatever I wanted to buy without explain to anyone why I bought those stuff and why I have to buy many of them.
I have shopped from 10:25 a.m. to 5.25 p.m. It was in a total of 7 hours walk and I didn't even cover the whole Jesco, amazing! :)
Sin Huat picked me from Jesco after he finished his work. At night we went out dining with Ah Hong again.
After we came back from dinner, at the kitchen, I heard the sound of sutra from the back of my house. I knew it directly what had happened. I hope Mr.Luo rest in peace, just like mom did that year.
Right now my thoughts couldn't rest in peace by listening to the sutra whole night. My memory brought me back to the day when mom passed away..... my mood is depressed suddenly.
I don't know if I can sleep well tonight?
Sin Huat and I went for breakfast. After that Jasmine drove me to the MPSP office at Bukit Mertajam so that I could pay the house tax, at same time I could get a number from the Tax Department at the same area. Actually I already have a number! Malaysia's Tax Department has progressed, Just like what Sin Huat told mem the best efficiency of government agencies is the Tax Department.After that I went for shopping at Jesco for a whole day by myself. It was good I didn't have to ask someone to shop with me. I felt easy and relief to shop alone, no pressure. I could buy whatever I wanted to buy without explain to anyone why I bought those stuff and why I have to buy many of them.
I have shopped from 10:25 a.m. to 5.25 p.m. It was in a total of 7 hours walk and I didn't even cover the whole Jesco, amazing! :)
Sin Huat picked me from Jesco after he finished his work. At night we went out dining with Ah Hong again.
After we came back from dinner, at the kitchen, I heard the sound of sutra from the back of my house. I knew it directly what had happened. I hope Mr.Luo rest in peace, just like mom did that year.
Right now my thoughts couldn't rest in peace by listening to the sutra whole night. My memory brought me back to the day when mom passed away..... my mood is depressed suddenly.
I don't know if I can sleep well tonight?
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Day 15
Mimi took to the lawyer's office to sign the S&P agreement. My hands started shaking when I signed on the documents.
This is the moment! I have to thank my cousin Steven's advice. He said when once your decision is make, you don't have to bother what others say anymore. I hope that dad and mum wouldn't be angry for selling the house. I have to choose in between which place I want to settle down. There are so many choices we have to make in life, whether it's a right choice or bad choice, we still have to choose one.
Thank Mimi so much for helping me in this whole process so that the selling process of my house could successfully and smoothly completed .
Sin Huat was on his way to the Butterworth today so he picked me from Mimi and drove me home. He bought me a big box of farm eggs (20pcs) from his client on the journey. He said they were for my breakfast. How thoughtful....I was touched..
At night we went out for dinner with my tenant. Ah Hong seemed like looked forward so much for Sin Huat's arrival. I think they have already built up the kind of brotherhood relationship. That not bad at all. At least Sin Huat wouldn't be lonely every month when he is in Butterworth.
I haven't been able to sleep well for a few nights. Hopefully I can sleep better today on my old bed..
Day 14
Dennis and I went to Penang in the early morning because we didn't want to miss today's program (The second day at the Penang Heritage Trust). Today's program was about The History of Humanities.
First Dennis took me to the oldest morning market for breakfast where we passed by a few old streets which refreshed my memories. Mum always brought me to these places when I was a little girl.. I was a little melancholy.
At 11a.m. we left the group because we have to go back to Butterworth to catch the bus to KL.
I was grateful the bus driver's driving skill was very good. It was annoying though that someone was smoking inside the bus.
Carl (Dennis' friend) came and picked us up upon our arrival in KL. He bought some delicious Malay food and kuih for our quick dinner at their apartment. After that Dennis drove me to Mimi's (my sister in law) house.
I couldn't stand that awkward moment when Mimi and Gary was having a big argument in the car on our way to our late dinner. In the silence and heavy atmosphere we quickly finished our dinner and rushed back to watch the badminton match. It was the World Championship match. It seems like I haven't watched such a exciting badminton match for ages, it was excellent！
I saluted to Mimi's patience for her husband and children. I sincerely hope that Gary will recover from his cancer very soon.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Day 13
2012-08-04 Saturday
Our breakfast (Note: Dennis and mine) were : one whole piece of durian, and then Hock Kian Mee and Kuih Teow Soup.
We arrived at the Love Lane in Penang safely. Our car just parked outside the "Sun De" club. The place where my father in law used to teach the Cantonese opera here. I tried to look for his photos inside there but didn't manage to find one...
Today's itinerary had given me more knowledge and understanding about those old housing in Penang. Pity that this committee PHT Penang Heritage Trust {http://www.pht.org.my/) too late. I have no idea how many beautiful old buildings that had the historical value had been destroyed by the ignorance Penang's government long before this?
I was glad I met two new friends, SJ Tan and his partner Eleen. Thanks to Dennis...
The discussion section at XinZhou Bridge was meaningful. Everyone sat in front of a temple, listened to the sound of the waves splashing on the pillars under us. The wind was breezing from the sea and kissed on our face from time to time. and we were listening to the Honorary Tresaurer from the PHT, about her relationship with PHT and how PHT was formed. I admired her energetic spirit and hard work in this project and Trust. If there were someone like her appeared 20 years ago, that would be great!
Penang's development is moving too fast. Every year when I come back here, I could I am a few steps behind...
Our breakfast (Note: Dennis and mine) were : one whole piece of durian, and then Hock Kian Mee and Kuih Teow Soup.
We arrived at the Love Lane in Penang safely. Our car just parked outside the "Sun De" club. The place where my father in law used to teach the Cantonese opera here. I tried to look for his photos inside there but didn't manage to find one...
Today's itinerary had given me more knowledge and understanding about those old housing in Penang. Pity that this committee PHT Penang Heritage Trust {http://www.pht.org.my/) too late. I have no idea how many beautiful old buildings that had the historical value had been destroyed by the ignorance Penang's government long before this?
I was glad I met two new friends, SJ Tan and his partner Eleen. Thanks to Dennis...
The discussion section at XinZhou Bridge was meaningful. Everyone sat in front of a temple, listened to the sound of the waves splashing on the pillars under us. The wind was breezing from the sea and kissed on our face from time to time. and we were listening to the Honorary Tresaurer from the PHT, about her relationship with PHT and how PHT was formed. I admired her energetic spirit and hard work in this project and Trust. If there were someone like her appeared 20 years ago, that would be great!Penang's development is moving too fast. Every year when I come back here, I could I am a few steps behind...
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Day 12
2012-08-03 Friday
I took out all mum's beautiful clothes collection and took photos on them. Mum loved red colors and that's why most of her beautiful clothes are in red. I thought Cita would like them very much. ( Note: Cita was mum's housemaid)
Dennis bought me lunch in the afternoon and then he took home half of Xiao Tzee's CD which Tzee asked me to take care of. That was really great!
The durian I got from Cai Ping's father a few days ago was a rotten one. Today he asked me to go over to his shop (just opposite my house) to get a new one. This time it was really a good variety.
At night I followed Dennis to Bukit Mertajam to visit his father and his brother's family. And then at night we had seafood for dinner at Tambun.
Dennis is sleeping over here tonight after all we are going to Penang together tomorrow in the early morning. I really look forwards to tomorrow's get together.
I took out all mum's beautiful clothes collection and took photos on them. Mum loved red colors and that's why most of her beautiful clothes are in red. I thought Cita would like them very much. ( Note: Cita was mum's housemaid)
Dennis bought me lunch in the afternoon and then he took home half of Xiao Tzee's CD which Tzee asked me to take care of. That was really great!The durian I got from Cai Ping's father a few days ago was a rotten one. Today he asked me to go over to his shop (just opposite my house) to get a new one. This time it was really a good variety.
At night I followed Dennis to Bukit Mertajam to visit his father and his brother's family. And then at night we had seafood for dinner at Tambun.
Dennis is sleeping over here tonight after all we are going to Penang together tomorrow in the early morning. I really look forwards to tomorrow's get together.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Day 11
2012-08-02 En overcast day
When I was washing my clothes this morning, Ah Gui was lying in front of me and looked at me. She is not scared of people that much anymore because since I came back I have been pampered her. I still haven't found a solution to settle her, starting getting worry about her...
I went to my mother's brother's wife's house for lunch. She was glad when I over there. Well, as she said she cooked a lot but no one at home wanted to eat. I was happy though because I felt so lucky to be served with ready cooked meal. Every time I visit her, she always cook my favorite dish - dried fried fish, it's so great! Mum was very good in cooking this dish too..
After I came back from lunch, I started with the packing. Mum always kept telling me to bring back that beautiful dinner set to Sweden but I always put her off. and now I cannot do that anymore...
4p.m. in the evening I was eating Kari Puff alone in the living room. Suddenly I got upset... Mum always watched TV at this time and having her evening refreshment. When I was with her, she would share her refreshment with me. Today nobody shared my refreshment with me. The wicker chair was empty. I could only imagine mum was sitting there, crying and laughing at the TV drama, and then she would tell me the plots of the drama, sharing her delicious refreshment and the sweet taste of her coffee...I once had them...
My skin is getting itching and have been itching for the whole day. I guess it must be the smog. Today whole day the sky was covered with the hazy smog. The sun didn't even get the chance to show off and shine. Poor Malaysian people has been helplessly bullied by the Indonesian. (Every year Indonesians will burn their fields during this period of time and the smog will cross over The Strait of Malacca and reached the air in Malaysia)
Today I sorted out the books in the bookcase (under the stairs). I really liked literature so much then. I would love to bring back all these books to Sweden but I know it is impossible. I hope Dennis will help me to keep some of them.
I have cleaned up mum's favorite dinner set. She asked me many times to bring them back to Sweden but I didn't do it, but this time I will. I want to bring them home and pass down to my girls. This was mum's wish. But I am having a headache how should I pack them... this is going to be a challenge for me.
This packing process is far too slow! My method of packing is watching the TV and packing at the same time. If mum was really here now, she would have scolded me for being sooo slow
Mum was an anxious person and unfortunately she had adopted me who is a slow person. Fortunately when I was young, during my schooling time, and before I got married, because of mum I was never late...So we were fit to each other pretty well.. Pity at her old age her temperament became irritable and people surrounding her was scared of her...
I am going to meet up with Dennis tomorrow, so happy! ^o^
When I was washing my clothes this morning, Ah Gui was lying in front of me and looked at me. She is not scared of people that much anymore because since I came back I have been pampered her. I still haven't found a solution to settle her, starting getting worry about her...
I went to my mother's brother's wife's house for lunch. She was glad when I over there. Well, as she said she cooked a lot but no one at home wanted to eat. I was happy though because I felt so lucky to be served with ready cooked meal. Every time I visit her, she always cook my favorite dish - dried fried fish, it's so great! Mum was very good in cooking this dish too..
4p.m. in the evening I was eating Kari Puff alone in the living room. Suddenly I got upset... Mum always watched TV at this time and having her evening refreshment. When I was with her, she would share her refreshment with me. Today nobody shared my refreshment with me. The wicker chair was empty. I could only imagine mum was sitting there, crying and laughing at the TV drama, and then she would tell me the plots of the drama, sharing her delicious refreshment and the sweet taste of her coffee...I once had them...
My skin is getting itching and have been itching for the whole day. I guess it must be the smog. Today whole day the sky was covered with the hazy smog. The sun didn't even get the chance to show off and shine. Poor Malaysian people has been helplessly bullied by the Indonesian. (Every year Indonesians will burn their fields during this period of time and the smog will cross over The Strait of Malacca and reached the air in Malaysia)
Today I sorted out the books in the bookcase (under the stairs). I really liked literature so much then. I would love to bring back all these books to Sweden but I know it is impossible. I hope Dennis will help me to keep some of them.
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| Only a small part of the books |
I have cleaned up mum's favorite dinner set. She asked me many times to bring them back to Sweden but I didn't do it, but this time I will. I want to bring them home and pass down to my girls. This was mum's wish. But I am having a headache how should I pack them... this is going to be a challenge for me.This packing process is far too slow! My method of packing is watching the TV and packing at the same time. If mum was really here now, she would have scolded me for being sooo slow
Mum was an anxious person and unfortunately she had adopted me who is a slow person. Fortunately when I was young, during my schooling time, and before I got married, because of mum I was never late...So we were fit to each other pretty well.. Pity at her old age her temperament became irritable and people surrounding her was scared of her...
I am going to meet up with Dennis tomorrow, so happy! ^o^
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Day 10
2012-08-01 Wednesday Hot and stuffy
The massage from yesterday has given the result. I was feeling kind of lazy, no energy at all. After breakfast I was hiding in mum's room whole day.. of course I have cleaned the curtains and settled Ah Kui's business (I let her out whole day!) and then I went into mum's room to clear up her closet....
Maybe because "big aunty"(menstration) is here...especially when I feel tired...then I know I can't get away from this feeling (sensitive). When I came back in year 2009, mum was still able to watch TV at upper floor, that time after she got her afternoon nap, I would accompany her to watch TV program together...
I took down mum's clothes and palled up on her bed but I didn't have the mood the clear them up... I sat down at the edge of the bed, thought of mum and I could not help but felt the sadness welling up... I turned the TV volume higher, so that it could cover my wailing and weeping sounds. I smsed message to Soo Imm and Sin Huat...I still could escape from mum\s feeling of loneliness and helplessness.
There was another reason why I was sad.. This morning Mr.Hoh called and informed me that finally the buyer want to sign on the sales agreement, which means that the selling of the house finally become a foregone conclusion.
I really have to start to pack down the stuff in the house from now...
The massage from yesterday has given the result. I was feeling kind of lazy, no energy at all. After breakfast I was hiding in mum's room whole day.. of course I have cleaned the curtains and settled Ah Kui's business (I let her out whole day!) and then I went into mum's room to clear up her closet....
Maybe because "big aunty"(menstration) is here...especially when I feel tired...then I know I can't get away from this feeling (sensitive). When I came back in year 2009, mum was still able to watch TV at upper floor, that time after she got her afternoon nap, I would accompany her to watch TV program together...
I took down mum's clothes and palled up on her bed but I didn't have the mood the clear them up... I sat down at the edge of the bed, thought of mum and I could not help but felt the sadness welling up... I turned the TV volume higher, so that it could cover my wailing and weeping sounds. I smsed message to Soo Imm and Sin Huat...I still could escape from mum\s feeling of loneliness and helplessness.There was another reason why I was sad.. This morning Mr.Hoh called and informed me that finally the buyer want to sign on the sales agreement, which means that the selling of the house finally become a foregone conclusion.
I really have to start to pack down the stuff in the house from now...
Day 9
I went for facial and massage. Yue Yun came and picked me up. And then I have to listen the conflict between her and Soo Imm. It has already been so many years and yet the complicated debt problem between still couldn't be settled, couldn't clear up....sigh!
I haven't had any massage for 14 months.. I was disappointed....it was not good and comfortable as I expected...Maybe my expectation was too high or it was YueYun's massage skills has been degenerated.
When I got back from the facial, I noticed that the curtains at the kitchen windows were tied up nicely. I remembered I didn't do that before I left the house. It seemed that mum was making a joke with me again... otherwise it was in her nature that couldn't tolerance that I didn't follow her pattern/way like the old time, so she couldn't help it she had to do it by herself again.
I need a good sleep tonight...
Day 8
2012-07-30 Monday
I supposed want to follow Cai Ping's father for lunch today but I was not feeling well since last night. I didn't want him and his family catch a flu from me.
Lina jiejie bought me breakfast this morning - WanTan noddle and a lot of papaya. She knows I like papaya because mum always asked her to buy for me.
I have been lazy for the whole day....I couldn't calm down my heart.
Can I actually see the house? Should I pack?
I was very anxious! I miss hubby and children! How I wish they could be here beside me..
At night I went out for dinner with Ah Hong. We ate Jawa noodle.
Then I watched TV for the rest of the night.
Really having BAD MOOD!!!
I supposed want to follow Cai Ping's father for lunch today but I was not feeling well since last night. I didn't want him and his family catch a flu from me.
Lina jiejie bought me breakfast this morning - WanTan noddle and a lot of papaya. She knows I like papaya because mum always asked her to buy for me.
I have been lazy for the whole day....I couldn't calm down my heart.
Can I actually see the house? Should I pack?
I was very anxious! I miss hubby and children! How I wish they could be here beside me..
At night I went out for dinner with Ah Hong. We ate Jawa noodle.
Then I watched TV for the rest of the night.
Really having BAD MOOD!!!
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Day 6 and Day 7
Day 6 Saturday 28.07.2012
Helen came to Sunny's house to bring me for breakfast, and then we went to her place for durian. Sad to know about her mum's situation hope that her mother will recover very soon.
Still couldn't sleep tied at night... Jiu Mu's (Sunny's mother) sleepless night influenced me. I am also very worried about her health condition.
Day 7 Sunday 29.07.2012
Went for lunch with Lisa's family and Johnny's family. I found out that the past 14 months they didn't met up at all. I am glad because of me everyone find their time to get together.
I was really happy now we all have times to be together and having fun with the chitchat and laughing!
Johnny brought us to a restaurant for roasted duck, which is owned by his friend.
Johnny's treat! Thanks Johnny :)
At night I have Mary took care of my dinner. She is really very good in what she is doing. I really admire her abilities and her success in her business. I hope she takes good care of her health though....
Day 4 and 5
Day 4 Wednesday
Cita came early in the morning and she cleaned up all the bathrooms - spotless, how nice!
While looking at the house spotless and as clean as always like the old time, I thought of mum would be very pleased to see this! Unfortunately we killed a few spiders, sorry....The husband to the aunty from Taiwan who stayed at the back of our house got lung cancer and was admitted to the ICU in the hospital. She was upset and indecisive, just like me for 14 months ago, I totally understand her feelings and and I hope that uncle will recover soon...
AnQi came for a visit in the evening. She bought fried mee for me. She is also moving soon.
At night the couple who wants to buy my house came. The moment of facing the reality. I really hope that mum would understand why I want to sell the house. I cannot rely on my cousin brothers and sisters to take care of the house for me all the time. Everyone has their own life to busy with, how could they always help me then?
I am really angry why a house that facing a road is hard to be sold out? It's scary how the belief of custom and Feng Shui is baffling people's mind!
Day 5 Thursday
Day 3
Day 3 Tuesday
Life without a few hours computer time after 3 days here was actually not that bad. Actually what I need to have a computer is for checking my e-mails only. Fortunately Sunny drove me to his boss's house to check mails and that was enough.
There is far too much dust at home, tomorrow I am going to ask the maid "Ah Hei" to come and clean up.
Lao Da (Sunny) didn't overnight here tonight. Finally I got the chance to unpack my luggage.
* The following part was written the next day..cause I was in a little chock and had a weird feeling and too tired to write that night...
While I was unpacking, I hanged a small plastic bag on a hanger but then it was blown away by the fan and ended up under the dusty bed. I took a look down there. Due to my fear to dust allergy I dared not took it out from there, so I decided to leave it there. I turned back and continued unpacking other stuff , and I tied another small plastic bag to the rope near the wall. Actually I was thinking of using these small plastic bag as a dustbin.
After a while when I was thinking to throw away some small papers and turned myself to the second plastic, I was the first plastic bag was hanged back nicely at the hanger. I thought back and really didn't pick up the first plastic bag...
Mum really came back to see me but I wasn't afraid at all, kind of weird. After all she didn't have the intention to scare me, she just wanted to help out...
Day 2 - Monday 2012 07 23
Day 2 Monday
We went to visit the third aunty (my mum's third brother's wife) first, then we went to "bai bai" dad and mum.
Outside the temple Zheng Jue Lin, I suppressed my feeling while I was walking into the temple. Mum and dad should know I am back here.
Because we went to Johnny's place, and then did some errands at other places after we left the temple, and when we reached home, surprising we saw the key chain was hanged at the outside of the middle gate. Sunny insisted he locked the key chain at the inside of the gate when we left the house this morning. This was one of the routine/regulations set by mum to everyone who has stayed in our house. I called around and asked everyone who has our house keys, and nobody has been there when we were out.. so that must be mum's way of welcoming me home then..
Sunny said the same thing too..
We went to buy durians in the evening. Sunny wanted to eat the best quality one, so we ended up bought home three good variety of durians (total 60 ringgits) , they were sooo yammy that I couldn't forget the taste in my mouth!
Day 1 - Sunday 2012.07.22
Day 1 Sunday 2012.07.22
After one year and two months, finally I am back to my old house again, as if I had a dream. The return of this trip brought along with me another kind of feeling.
Sunny offered to stay back to keep me company. Well, better that way, otherwise I don't know how to spend this night.
The first thing to do tomorrow morning is to go and "bai bai" dad and mum, and tell them I have sold the house...but I don't know how should I tell them?
Well it seems like I should get a good sleep instead... I really have to pack this time...
日记
中学时超爱写写东写写西的打发时间和发泄情绪， 但是我从来都不写日记。没那个耐心，也觉得哪有那么多天天可以发牢骚的东西写。来到瑞典后的日子是在忙着扮演妈妈，工人，老婆的角色中度过的，连以前的爱好都放弃了，更不用说写什么日记。说实在，现在我有时会后悔没有养成写日记的习惯，好多记忆里的事务都模糊了， 有时只能靠照片和孩子们所记得的事情来唤起回忆。
很多人都认为搬家和卖屋子是我们人生里的其中一件大事。那倒是的。是一个要下很大决心去做的事。所以轮到我五个月前，必须要面对卖掉爸妈留给我的屋子的抉择时，我天生不能拿定主意的性格一直左右着我，让我好烦躁，再加上身边一些左右我做决定的干扰，让我更加不能做决定。还好，我最终能定下心情，问问我心里要的是什么，所以下了决心买了机票飞回去老家，开始我三个月的收拾，收拾妈妈留下来的杂物和纪念品，和整理我一直没带过来瑞典的东西，里面有我童年和少女青春期的梦和回忆。
为了让我的女儿以后了解我这三个月的心情，如果她们有兴趣知道的话，再加上发觉自己的记忆力越来越差，我又下了另一个决心， 一定要把这三个月的过程记录下来。
我做到了！有些是当天晚上睡觉前写的，有些是过了几天才写的。但都是每一天的记录。
只是有些的记忆只适合留在我的脑海中，不能分享的秘密只能自己一个人知道。
When I was at the high school I loved to write about this and that to kill times and express my emotion. but I never wrote a diary. I didn't have that patience because there were not much stuff to write about everyday. After moving to Sweden and started to play many different rolls as a mom, a worker, a wife in my busy daily, I have given up my hobbies, not even mention about writing a diary. To be honest, and now sometimes I regret that I didn't develop a habit of keeping a diary because a lot of memories are getting blurry and sometimes I can only rely on photos and children to remember things.Many people think that to moving and sell a house is one of the major events in our life. That is quite true. It takes a great determination to do make that move. Therefore when it was my turn to make that move five months ago, when I must facing the decision to sell the house my parents left for me, I got irritability. I am a person that can not make up my mind easily, plus there were people around me tried to interfered me, so I couldn't even make a decision. Fortunately, I eventually be able to set a mood, to ask what my heart want, so finally I made up my mind to buy a ticket, fly back home to start a three-month packing and clean up the mother's stuff and my stuff. These stuff brought along with my dreams and memories of my childhood and teenage adolescence.
So, in order to let my daughters know how I did and felt in these three months, that's if they are interested to know of course, plus I noticed that my memory's ability is getting worse, I made another determination, I want and must keep a journal about these three month's process.
I did it! Some were written in then night before I went to bed, some were written a few days after but still were the stuff that have been done or happened on that date when they occurred.
It just that some of the memories would only suitable to stay in my mind, secrets that can't not be shared with others should be kept for yourself.
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