Day 13

2012-08-04  Saturday

Our breakfast (Note: Dennis and mine) were : one whole piece of durian, and then Hock Kian Mee and Kuih Teow Soup.

We arrived at the Love Lane in Penang safely. Our car just parked outside the "Sun De" club. The place where my father in law used to teach the Cantonese opera here. I tried to look for his photos inside there but didn't manage to find one...

Today's itinerary had given me more knowledge and understanding about those old housing in Penang. Pity that this committee PHT Penang Heritage Trust {http://www.pht.org.my/) too late. I have no idea how many beautiful old buildings that had the historical value had been destroyed by the ignorance Penang's government long before this?

I was glad I met two new friends, SJ Tan and his partner Eleen. Thanks to Dennis...

The discussion section at XinZhou Bridge was meaningful. Everyone sat in front of a temple, listened to the sound of the waves splashing on the pillars under us. The wind was breezing from the sea and kissed on our face from time to time. and we were listening to the Honorary Tresaurer from the PHT, about her relationship with PHT and how PHT was formed. I admired her energetic spirit and hard work in this project  and Trust. If there were someone like her appeared 20 years ago, that would be great!

Penang's development is moving too fast. Every year when I come back here, I could I am a few steps behind...

Day 12

2012-08-03 Friday






I took out all mum's beautiful clothes collection and took photos on them. Mum loved red colors and that's why most of her beautiful clothes are in red. I thought Cita would like them very much. ( Note: Cita was mum's housemaid)

 

Dennis bought me lunch in the afternoon and then he took home half of Xiao Tzee's CD which Tzee asked me to take care of. That was really great!

The durian I got from Cai Ping's father a few days ago was a rotten one. Today he asked me to go over to his shop (just opposite my house) to get a new one. This time it was really a good variety.

At night I followed Dennis to Bukit Mertajam to visit his father and his brother's family. And then at night we had seafood for dinner at Tambun.

Dennis is sleeping over here tonight after all we are going to Penang together tomorrow in the early morning. I really look forwards to tomorrow's get together.

Day 11

2012-08-02  En overcast day

When I was washing my clothes this morning, Ah Gui was lying in front of me and looked at me. She is not  scared of people that much anymore because since I came back I have been pampered her. I still haven't found a solution to settle her, starting getting worry about her...

I went to my mother's brother's wife's house for lunch. She was glad when I over there. Well, as she said she cooked a lot but no one at home wanted to eat. I was happy though because I felt so lucky to be served with ready cooked meal. Every time I visit her, she always cook my favorite dish - dried fried fish, it's so great! Mum was very good in cooking this dish too..

After I came back from lunch, I started with the packing. Mum always kept telling me to bring back that beautiful dinner set to Sweden but I always put her off. and now I cannot do that anymore...

4p.m. in the evening I was eating Kari Puff alone in the living room. Suddenly I got upset... Mum always watched TV at this time and having her evening refreshment. When I was with her, she would share her refreshment with me. Today nobody shared my refreshment with me. The wicker chair was empty. I could only imagine mum was sitting there, crying and laughing at the TV drama, and then she would tell me the plots of the drama, sharing her delicious refreshment and the sweet taste of her coffee...I once had them...


My skin is getting itching and have been itching for the whole day. I guess it must be the smog. Today whole day the sky was covered with the hazy smog. The sun didn't even get the chance to show off and shine. Poor Malaysian people has been helplessly bullied by the Indonesian. (Every year Indonesians will burn their fields during this period of time and the smog will cross over The Strait of Malacca and reached the air in Malaysia)

Today I sorted out the books in the bookcase (under the stairs). I really liked literature so much then. I would love to bring back all these books to Sweden but I know it is impossible. I hope Dennis will help me to keep some of them.

Only a small part of the books

I have cleaned up mum's favorite dinner set. She asked me many times to bring them back to Sweden but I didn't do it, but this time I will. I want to bring them home and pass down to my girls. This was mum's wish. But I am having a headache how should I pack them... this is going to be a challenge for me.

This packing process is far too slow! My method of packing is watching the TV and packing at the same time. If mum was really here now, she would have scolded me for being sooo slow

Mum was an anxious person and unfortunately she had adopted me who is a slow person. Fortunately when I was young, during my schooling time, and before I got married, because of mum I was never late...So we were fit to each other pretty well.. Pity at her old age her temperament became irritable and people surrounding her was scared of her...

I am going to meet up with Dennis tomorrow, so happy! ^o^

Day 10

2012-08-01  Wednesday  Hot and stuffy

The massage from yesterday has given the result. I was feeling kind of lazy, no energy at all. After breakfast I was hiding in mum's room whole day.. of course I have cleaned the curtains and settled Ah Kui's business (I let her out whole day!) and then I went into mum's room to clear up her closet....
Maybe because "big aunty"(menstration) is here...especially when I feel tired...then I know I can't get away from this feeling (sensitive). When I came back in year 2009, mum was still able to watch TV at upper floor, that time after she got her afternoon nap, I would accompany her to watch TV program together...

I took down mum's clothes and palled up on her bed but I didn't have the mood the clear them up... I sat down at the edge of the bed, thought of mum and I could not help but felt the sadness welling up... I turned the TV volume higher, so that it could cover my wailing and weeping sounds. I smsed message to Soo Imm and Sin Huat...I still could escape from mum\s feeling of loneliness and helplessness.

There was another reason why I was sad.. This morning Mr.Hoh called and informed me that finally the buyer want to sign on the sales agreement, which means that the selling of the house finally become a foregone conclusion.

I really have to start to pack down the stuff in the house from now...

Day 9

2012-07-31

I went for facial and massage. Yue Yun came and picked me up. And then I have to listen the conflict between her and Soo Imm. It has already been so many years and yet the complicated debt problem between still couldn't be settled, couldn't clear up....sigh!

I haven't had any massage for 14 months.. I was disappointed....it was not good and comfortable as I expected...Maybe my expectation was too high or it was YueYun's massage skills has been degenerated.

When I got back from the facial, I noticed that the curtains at the kitchen windows were tied up nicely. I remembered I didn't do that before I left the house. It seemed that mum was making a joke with me again... otherwise it was in her nature that couldn't tolerance that I didn't follow her pattern/way like the old time, so she couldn't help it she had to do it by herself again.

I need a good sleep tonight...

Day 8

2012-07-30 Monday

I supposed want to follow Cai Ping's father for lunch today but I was not feeling well since last night. I didn't want him and his family catch a flu from me.

Lina jiejie bought me breakfast this morning - WanTan noddle and a lot of papaya. She knows I like papaya because mum always asked her to buy for me.

I have been lazy for the whole day....I couldn't calm down my heart.

Can I actually see the house? Should I pack?

I was very anxious! I miss hubby and children! How I wish they could be here beside me..

At night I went out for dinner with Ah Hong. We ate Jawa noodle.

Then I watched TV for the rest of the night.

Really having BAD MOOD!!!